My heart is heavy.  It is full of weight.  It is full of burden.  Burden for others and burden for myself.

I am saddened by the hatred, selfishness, inconsiderate behavior of others.  I am sad for those that have lost something so dear to them.  The overwhelming sense of loss for me is in no way even close to that of those whose family, loved ones and friends were lost in Orlando on Sunday.  The person that decided, planned, and carried out atrocities on innocent persons was sick.  He was psycho, mentally unstable, NOT human.

Humanity is all of us at some point, on some level.  Crazy is what kills.  Wounded, hurting is what drives others to lash out.  Frustration, conflict, lack of peace is what pushes us to act in a manner that is not kind, understanding, or even humane.  SELFISHNESS is what interferes with true love.  Lack of consequence is what perpetuates bad behavior.  Crazy is what kills.

How does the brain and conscience get disconnected to the point of cold blooded murder?  What evil lurks and infests the psyche to the depth of destruction.  What feeling propelled him to purchase, plan, and promote himself to life-taker.  How did a thought turn into a fantasy?  How did he get so far off base?

The questions:  What did it feel like to be trapped in there?  What was it like to be shot at and hit?  What were they thinking as they lay there suffering?  Who had the thought to ambush the terrorist?  Why couldn't they ban together and overtake him?  God I pray for those moments that people were in total fear, shock, pain.  I pray for those moments to be redeemed.  I pray for those moments to enable those of us left behind to be intentional about loving others.  For every person that suffered may I show love to 1 person.  For every person that perished, may I speak life to someone defeated. For every family that is missing a loved one, may I cherish one member of my family and tell them how much they are loved.

Many are unlovable.  That's why I need Jesus.  I need to be taught to love.  I need to love as He loves.
Give me your eyes Jesus.  Give me your compassion Jesus.  Give me your eyes to see those who needs your love.  I need strength to be able to do this.  I need understanding.  I need to practice love.

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